Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Decision Made!

I kinda feel like I have been in a little room, waiting to come out until I have made a decision. Today is my day to share that decision.
My original oncologist is concerned that traditional treatments are not working as well as they should. So he sent me to a Clinical Trial oncologist. I was a LOT concerned. My husband and I met with him last Friday. I liked him immediately but the trial he offered last week was just not for me. I like to think I am somewhat brave...but I am not THAT brave! So I was troubled about what to do. Seemed like the more I asked for direction from the Lord, the more troubled I became.
Yesterday I had to return and give them the answer. I said no. He then offered me another clinical trial which both hubby and I are much more happy with. I will be beginning the new infusion on Monday. Hopefully, the reactions should be mild and the results favorable.
Have I mentioned LATELY that I HATE CANCER!
Thanks for all the prayers. They mean so much to me.
So now that I am out of the "little room" and the semi-truck is off my shoulders....on to blogging!!


Rebecca Nelson said...

Dear Ceekay...

Ok...my eyes are burning from the tears. I'm so mad. I hate cancer, too. It' hit my daddy and my brother...both have survived. I pray this is encouraging for you!

I pray this very moment for God's Sweet Peace to bathe over you. I pray for your spirit to be renewed and for your faith to be taken to a new height...

In His Time He makes all things beautiful, wonderful, and right.

Love to you my sister, my friend.


Ashley ~ said...

I'm hating cancer more than ever right about now too. It's so tiring and frustrating. Do you ever feel as though the whole world is passing us by while we're standing still trying to figure out what to do next? You're in my thoughts and prayers...._Ashley

Happy@Home said...

I can't imagine having to make a decision like that. It must have been difficult. But, now that you have made the decision I hope you will feel a sense of peace.
My prayers continue for you.


Blondie's Journal said...


I pray the new treatment is successful. What a brave soul you are.

I had a friend with cancer and he wore a T shirt that said 'Cancer Sucks'. And it does.

Thinking of you, sweetie...


Cami @ Creating Myself said...

CeeKay, I soo admire your positive attitude & spirit.... that is your best defense against this awful disease. You will remain in my prayers.

Stacey said...

I hate cancer too! You keep making good choices for yourself and keep on fighting! We will keep you in our thoughts and prayers.

Happy To Be/ Gl♥ria said...

Girl you know how I feel about the C word...I want you to know ever since I have met you I have been praying every day for you...Girl keep up the good fight...Love ya sis...Hugs and smiles Gl♥ria

Mary said...

Oh, Ceekay, I am so saddened that you are going through this, but your attitude is awesome, and that will see you through...I know you have a deep faith in the Lord to walk through any trial that comes, and this is sure a big one. I'm praying and believing for total recovery. Have you also looked into alternatives, like diet? Feeding your cells some living fod will help combat the ill effects of drugs...at least there is evidence of that. I don't know first hand what you're experiencing, but I do know that when I'm faced with something I can't control, I have to move forward with my life anyway, so I'm glad to hear that you're doing that. Stay connected, stay Christ centered, and don't let the enemy steal your joy...every day you or any of us have is a gift...open it up daily, delight in it, and enjoy! Praying for you daily...God bless you.


Mary said...

Hi again, Ceekay...here is a link to a website that might interest you. http://www.hacres.com/diet/diet.asp

Bless you!

Karen said...

Hi CeeKay.
I hope the side effects are mild and you breeze right through! And nope - cancer really truly sucks! But you have a HUGE support system, between your immediate friends and family and then all of your extended family in BLOGLAND! And such a good support system they say is really important too.
So know that we are all praying for you, and your family, and we are trusting that the Lord will see you through. He is awesome!
Big hugs my friend!
Karen @ Some Days Are Diamonds

Connie said...

You are in my thoughts daily when I learn just over a week ago about you going through cancer, sugar. I can't even express how that upset me. You have been in prayers and will continue to be, sweet chick. I know with faith we can survive anything.

Marty@A Stroll Thru Life said...

Oh Ceekay, I believe the Lord is guiding you to the right treatments. I will keep praying for a complete healing. Hugs, Marty

Beth at Aunties said...

Oh, dearest Ceekay,

I too have tears and HATE cancer, the word, the thought and what it does to lives. I lost my sister to this horrid robber. Yet, I have a nephew who is winning and a brother in law fighting the fight.

I am so grateful for the still small voice that comes from the Lord. I am glad you came out and the semi-truck is off of your shoulders. I pray the new treatment is gentle and you will be blessed with wonderful results and great news.
May Heavenly Father surround you in his loving arms fill your heart and soul with faith.
Bless your heart, you are in my prayers.~♥

Heather said...

I'm glad you said NO when it didn't feel right to you. And I'm glad the doctor had a new solution. I'll be praying it goes smoothly for you :)
I hate cancer too!

Shelia said...

Oh, Dear Ceekay. I'm so sorry you've had to go through all of this!
I'm glad to hear you have some peace from choosing the second treatment. I am praying for you that this one will be successful! I love you, sweet friend.
Shelia ;)

Shari @ My Cottage of Bliss said...

You have every right to hate cancer, Ceekay. And, in my opinion, it's perfectly okay to hate it. It has no redeeming qualities as far as I can see. Unfortunately, it is too widespread. We all know someone who has been affected by it. I watched my mother battle it for almost a year. I hope and pray this new treatment is just the thing that puts you into remission and cures you forever.

Anonymous said...

Ceekay I am so sorry to hear you are going through this terrible ordeal. My MIL is in the middle of her treatments and I have a dear friend who is back again for more treatments.

I pray you will continue to feel God's comfort and peace and know that you are loved. I love the verse in John where he talks about "leaning on the breast of Jesus" Thats my prayer that you will lean heavily on His breast and feel His heartbeat.


Nanette said...

I know I never like those in-between times of decision making. Now that you have made the decision you get to run with the plan and hopefully some of your stress will ease. We are all in your corner cheering for you all the time sending lots and lots of love your way!

Kathy said...

C, you know exactly how I feel about cancer and this whole ordeal. And you also know that Sandy and I pray for you and Hubs, well...ALL the time. I'm behind you 100% in your decision. You're so smart to make yourself as informed as possible, weigh all the pros and cons, PRAY and pray some more, then come to a decision, and move forward! I'm so proud of you!

lots of love, my old friend (and I do mean "old friend" in the nicest way!)

Pudgeduck said...

Still praying...........

Myrna said...

Thanks for sharing with us, Ceekay, and keeping us updated about your treatments,etc. I know you'd rather not dwell on it...
Will continue to pray through this next season of treatments.

Jeremiah 6:16
This is what the Lord says:
Stand at the crossroads and look;
Ask for ancient paths, ask where the good way is, and walk in it;
And you will find rest for your souls."

Nancy Soyka said...

Hey, girl! It sure was good to talk to you yesterday. I told you I was keeping you in my thoughts and prayers and watching you truly blossom in your decorating skills and ideas. I have been following you in this blog website, in the background, everyday for a long time. I can't believe it's been 3 years since we worked together and you left to have your surgery and find out that you had cancer. Everytime someone here asks about you, I give them your blog site and let them have the enjoyment that I get from reading your daily thoughts. You know, maybe it was a blessing in disguise, because you have so much to offer in inspiration and talent, that I believe it gives hope to others who are in the same situation as you.

Kim said...

Just be careful when it comes to your health insurance coverage. Many health plans will not pay for clinical trials or complications from the trial. I know this from working in the Health Insurance Claim field.

But of course, the final decision is yours and you need to do what is right for you. Stay strong and keep the faith!!

Salmagundi said...

I HATE, HATE it, too. I know that now that your decision has been made, it will be much better for you. Life is such a nasty test, isn't it? I hope you are more at peace. Take care, Sally

cindy-stitches-n-stuff.blogspot.com said...

Oh you sweet thing, I am definetely with you. Friday we saw a tumor in my breast bone. What does one do at a time like this? I don't know, but I do know that "Faith preceeds the miracle.

My prayers are with you cute blogger.


Lady Katherine said...

Ceekay, I want to wish you the Best I can wish and many prayers! I will be going to 8-10 hour surgery next Wednesday. I will not be around for a long time. Just wanted you to know I think of you often! Stay strong your going to Kick the Big C with all you have, I just know it!

Celestina Marie said...

Hi Ceekay,
I know you must have felt the weight of the world or a semi truck, trying to make a decision. I am so glad that you have your direction and going forward.
I hate cancer too and will keep you in my prayers daily for all to go well and the clinical trial is very favorable without reaction.

I know the Lord will see you through.Blessings and Love to you sweet friend.
Celestina Marie

Lou Cinda @ Tattered Hydrangeas said...

Ceekay, I can only imagine how difficult this decision was for you! I will keep you in my prayers everyday! I hate cancer too!

Lou Cinda

Cathy~Mille Fleur said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult time.

God bless you!!!

Yellow Rose Arbor said...

I'm thankful you have made your decision. Praying for the best results of your new treatment.

Someone shared www.hacres.com I second that motion. We went to one of his seminars last year. I've changed my eating habits since I heard him. Check it out!


The Quintessential Magpie said...

I am thinking of you and hoping you are going to be healed from that hideous disease.

My prayers are for your complete and total healing, Ceekay. I hate cancer, too!



Delchick42 said...

God Bless you both!!!!! I am praying for you. Take care.

Kara Ward said...

Oh, that rooster is fantastic. You have a lovely place to rest your eyes on and enjoy fall. Life has a way of working out!

Debbie said...

Thanks for stopping by, come back anytime. I really like all your fall decorations. And I love putting wreaths everywhere, even where you least expect it. Debbie

Debbie said...

I'm so sorry, I put this on the wrong link and just realized what this post is about. I will be praying for you and that everything goes well. I don't really know anyone that doesn't hate cancer. It always comes uninvited. Take care. Debbie

Gracie said...

I can't even imagine to stay in the posistion you are in right now. My prayers are with you.

{Bellamere Cottage} said...

Sweet Ceekay...

You're going through all this and yet took time to visit me? You, my dear, are a trooper! That's I KNOW you're going to win this battle. God is so good, I know it must be hard to wait when you want an answer RIGHT NOW, but answer He does...I'm so sorry that you're facing this nasty disease. I wish they would hurry and find the cure.

Your home looks so dressed up! I love everything. Are you one of those lucky gals who has a courtyard?

I'm praying for you. Isn't blogville a wonderful place for Christian women to meet and lift one another up?


Martha's Favorites said...

Hi: I want to thank you for visiting my blog. Most of all I want to thank you for sharing about your cancer. The Body of Christ needs to pray and that is what I will do. I know you do not know me, but we do not need to. We both know the Healer! Martha

Unknown said...

Hi CeeKay.... I'm still praying for you and thinking of you every day. I hope this is the right treatment for you.


P.S. that's a cute little out house! :)

GwendolynKay said...

Dear Ceekay ,
first of all , I love your name! very original! I am so sad to hear you have cancer. I hate it to! My Dad died from cancer , and more family members on both my side and my hubby's . I will be praying for you and I hope you won't mind if I put a prayer button on my page.... Let's get as many of God's good people praying for you as we can.
I love your blog, looing it over... so beautiful and charming!
Blessings to you.

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